CupcakeRetards.

I have died; therefore, I am dead.

2011-10-06T16:18:00.003+08:00

Now tumbling at www.henalenah.tumblr.com

At the brink of brink of death

2011-08-23T10:54:00.002+08:00

The last time it happened, I fell down the stairs of Shao's house and tore my ligament. Which was last year.

And now, it happened again. I was literally crying because I couldn't take the pain of my tonsil infection. Yes, that bad.

Note to self: Sleep enough and drink more water.

Sadness; not tolerated.

2011-08-19T00:15:00.001+08:00

I am trying very hard already.

Or am I not trying hard enough?

What is enough?

It is never enough.

HORH-LEE-DAYS!

2011-08-11T20:49:00.001+08:00

AHHHH. Finally! After so long! Holidays!

Finally a day I don't have to worry so much about not studying enough!

Just scared about results... NOOOOOOO!!!!!!

A day worth commemorating.

2011-07-07T23:00:00.003+08:00

Today, I am a little less than happy.

Today, I notice what I haven't really noticed (Or maybe I did, just chose not to care).

Today, I broke a promise I made to myself a long time ago.

And I really wish I would never do it again.

Where can you go?

2011-06-21T07:31:00.000+08:00

I hate you for this. I really do.

T-minus 13 days and counting

2011-06-12T00:44:00.002+08:00

This is day 2.

And it just feels so weird knowing that you won't be here whenever I need you now. But I should get used to it. For myself and for us. (8

We may have came off with a bad start, considering the events that happened the day before, but I'm positive that we can work together and prove your instructor wrong (8

Thank you for still caring so much for me, and I miss you loads.

What motivates you?

2011-05-26T19:46:00.003+08:00

What motivates some people to do the things they do and say the things they say? More importantly, what motivates them to choose one decision over another?

I know not where I stand now, but I hope you do.

Maybe you can try to stand in my shoes.

I need you; they're coming to take you away

2011-05-23T12:31:00.002+08:00

Holidays are seriously too short. DAMN YOU UB !

But I had fun these few days. With friends and with my boyfriend ♥ !

It's these moments that I will miss after 10th June.

Going into green pastures

2011-05-11T09:56:00.003+08:00

I've been through this before, and now I'm going through it again.

If I were to say it feels the same this time round, I would be lying and I might go to hell D; !

It doesn't feel the same somehow. I don't know why. It just doesn't. But I'm prepared and actually rather happy for him 8D ! Knowing that somehow this would make him a stronger person, and us, a stronger couple.

ilyilyilyilyilyilyily 8DDD

Demons never looked this good.

2011-05-06T21:12:00.001+08:00

Cole Turner !!! ♡♡♡

Viva la Muerte

2011-04-22T01:52:00.003+08:00

" GO GO GO ! "

This is how I feel like lately.

Because of several reasons:

- Exams are drawing near

- I've started a new exercising regime

- I have a Commando boyfriend (8

- And, I just feel pumped up and ready to go !

TAKE 'EM DOWN ! TAKE 'EM DOWN !

FYI, I didn't need you to make me feel worse.

2011-04-18T13:15:00.002+08:00

A source of comfort.

Comfort |ˈkəmfərt|

noun1 a state of physical ease and freedom from pain or constraint• ( comforts) things that contribute to physical ease and well-being• prosperity and the pleasant lifestyle secured by it2 consolation for grief or anxiety • reassurance• [in sing. ] a person or thing that gives consolation• a person or thing that gives satisfaction

Hah.

Army of Me - Bjork

2011-04-09T13:01:00.002+08:00

She just looks so intriguing to me.

Thank you Sucker Punch for introducing her to me (8 !

Sing me to sleep

2011-03-31T23:04:00.001+08:00

I can't deny it. I'm scared.

I don't know what to expect tomorrow. And I'm scared.

So I'll just go and HOPE & PRAY they won't call me back.

I probably don't like you.

2011-03-27T12:39:00.003+08:00

I only talk to a few people in my university. A few meaning, less than 10. That is excluding Hi-Bye friends. I am like an outcast (8

And, you know what? I actually like it that way. (8

So don't try to be all friendly with me if you're not one of the few people I talk to. I hate it. And that means, I hate you.

My boyfriend called me a nerd. -.-

2011-03-24T17:56:00.003+08:00

Cause I can recite the lines in LOTR. I call that cool okay !

It has come to the end of my happy happy 3 days stay-over. Though we didn't do much cause I had to study and he had to kill monsters, find flags, eat cakes, knock over doors and lift the tails of tigers to see if they're female in WOW, I am still very happy we got to spend so much time together. Hehe.

Still my favourite picture of my boyfriend (8

2011-03-17T00:19:00.000+08:00

We all need trendier moms.

2011-03-15T23:33:00.002+08:00

Justin Bieber was on the paper yesterday because, apparently, he's coming to Singapore. HOORAY! 8DDD !!! Rrright.

I showed mom the "poster" of him to compare our hair because I thought my hair looks a lot like his now. And mom was having trouble, a lot of trouble, pronouncing his name.

"Justin BEEBAR, BEBO, BY-YEE-BEAR, BE-LE-BAR, BYEARBRA? Mummy really don't know. Really don't know."

I love my mom. (8

2 weeks and counting !!!

2011-03-11T23:59:00.002+08:00

I've been uber happy these few days!!!

Mainly because I feel that our relationship is getting stronger and better ! And of course, my tests and projects have been graded fairly well. I still have to study more though. CHIONG ARH!!!

And ALSO, because I can proudly announce that Sarnia remembers how well I'm treating her. She misses me when she doesn't see me. 8DDD !!!

I'm at the lowest of the low.

2011-02-26T00:09:00.001+08:00

I think I haven't felt more depressed in my life than I do now.

It's not always rainbows and butterflies

2011-02-25T17:04:00.002+08:00

I seriously hate evenings when my sister is out with her boyfriend, my mother is at work, and my father is nowhere to be found.

EE-REE-TAY-TURD.

2011-02-22T21:47:00.002+08:00

I. Am. So. Bloody. F-ing. Pissed. Now.

I was REALLY HAPPY this afternoon cause I get to see my boy, class was cancelled and that I got a satisfactory grade for my SOC294 test.

And all that HAD to be destroyed by YOU.

I've had it. This is not the first time it happened.

Why do you always have to do this to me. Talk about false hopes.

Been living with a shadow overhead

2011-02-22T16:50:00.001+08:00

I keep hitting replay ! Hahahah. Maybe too influenced by Shaoli. (8

Clever Hans, Clever Hans.

2011-02-16T16:41:00.000+08:00

Why wouldn't you cast friendly eyes on her?

I can't wait to see 2 big candles on my cake! (8

2011-02-15T19:13:00.002+08:00

I'M FEELING FANTABULOUS. (8 !!!

That doesn't include the fact that I have a test and an essay due tomorrow, and another test on Friday. AND, ESL408 mid-terms next week. Heh.

But I'm still feeling pretty swell. 8DDD !

So very happy !

2011-02-06T12:05:00.002+08:00

Really happy these few days.

And that day on the car, I am finally very certain that we will walk through this life together (8

OHH. I WANNA WATCH TANGLED AGAINNNNNNN !!!!!!

I will not cry over spilled milk.

2011-01-30T17:19:00.002+08:00

What has happened, happened.

Just depends how you look at it.

New EVERYTHING!

2011-01-13T23:41:00.002+08:00

New courses, new ROOM (Yay!), new clothes, new shoes, new bed, new bookshelf, new wall colour. NEW A LOT OF STUFF AH.

Damn damn damn damn happy ! (8 !

HELLO 2011 !!!

2010-12-31T09:35:00.002+08:00

I didn't realized my previous post was the 139th post! THAT'S LIKE MY FAVOURITE NUMBER!

ANYWHO, this year 2010 is about to end. AND TO BE HONEST, I didn't quite like this year. Well of course, besides the fact that I found SHAOLI KOH this year. Other than that, this year has been a drag. And I can't wait for next year!

I can't wait for school to start! Maybe because I made a pact with my boy that I would work EXTRA EXTRA hard this time round, I can't wait to jump straight in and prove that I can do it! SO YEAHHHH.

So the New Year calls for New Year Resolutions. And I'm GLAD to say, I don't think I achieved ANY of my resolutions I made this year. Hah. So uh, here is my NEW list. (8

1) Get higher GPA! More than 3.0!

2) Get fitttt before Chinese New Year. Hello CheongSam.

3) HOPEFULLY, be able to finish the stuff I prepared for my dear boy.

4) Plan a biffle outing when SIMIN comes back

5) Get into Student Council.

6) Stop making resolutions that I can't keep.

There's a first time for EVERYTHING.

2010-12-26T00:07:00.002+08:00

It's the first time I brought a boyfriend home for Christmas.

It's the first time Shao brought me home for Christmas.

It's the first time Shao celebrated Christmas with someone.

It's the first time my sister went to my boyfriend's house.

It's the first time my father actually bought something for my boyfriend's family.

And, it's also the first time I celebrated Christmas with someone that I know I will celebrate again with the next Christmas, and hopefully more Christmas-es to come.

Canine Critters !

2010-12-21T09:19:00.003+08:00

ARCTIC FOX

RED FOX

BAT-EARED FOX

AHH. SO CUTE SO CUTE SO CUTE. I'm in love with FOXES ! Actually, I think I'm in love with ANYTHING from the Dog-family. Like wolves, coyotes, jackals, foxes, dholes, and of course, just plain dogs. (8 (8 (8 !!! ♥♥

It's not the gift, it's the thought that counts.

2010-12-20T00:49:00.002+08:00

Half a year of love & care, support & encouragement, understanding & patience with little surprizes here and there. (8

Thank you dear for your wonderful 6 months gift ! To me, the best part of the gift is how you planned it for a long time, and of course, that we got to spend time together.

I love you so so so so so so so much. ♥♥♥

Oh happy day !

2010-12-16T23:23:00.001+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER !!!

Just really really really really really ( x 2472837954812434 ) hope that I won't have to repeat any courses and that I will pass my exams in flying RAINBOWS !

8DD !

I think I'm sick. What's the cure?

2010-12-11T22:04:00.001+08:00

Feeling very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very LONELY at the moment. Thanks for asking.

Don't want the world to see me now.

2010-12-11T21:43:00.002+08:00

Because I'm at the lowest of the low.

You might not even be able to see me if you try. Haha.

Can time move any slower ?!

2010-12-06T13:48:00.002+08:00

WAHH. Time is moving so slow nowadays !!! I can't wait for exams to be OVER ! Especially COM101 and PSY101. I haven't really started studying on these 2 subjects yet. D; So pretty scared actually. Hah.

But if I consider about how we're gonna be celebrating our 6 MONTHS tomorrow, time passes pretty fast. (8

Then there are those Special Moments that comes along

2010-12-03T23:57:00.002+08:00

Shao : So what is Ichiban? What does it have?

Me : It's a Japanese restaurant, it sells Japanese food.

Shao : So des ne.... * SUDDEN REALIZATION FACE*

Hahahahaha. ♥♥♥

Fables of Forgotten Things

2010-11-26T23:31:00.002+08:00

I always play with Viola ( my PSP ) when I'm on the bus or on the train. Whether it's G.I. Joe or Loco Rocco, my favs. But today, when I suddenly saw Viola, I thought about how I haven't touched her for a long time.

I feel a sense of guilt for abandoning her for my iTouch. And my iTouch doesn't even have a name. 8/

So, as soon as I find Viola's food ( the charger ), I'll start bringing her everywhere ! (8 !

Tomorrow is TURKEY DAY !

2010-11-24T22:11:00.003+08:00

WOOO ! TURKEY DAYYYYY !

This day, though it isn't here yet, I shall give THANKS to EVERYBODY and EVERYONE whether or not you are alive, or dead, or in limbo!

I mean, that is what Thanksgiving Day is for, is it not? Not including the running around in pilgrim or red indian costume chasing a turkey. 8DD !

HAPPY THANKSGIVING DAY EVERYBODY ! GIVES THANKS AND BE MERRY !

Ohh! So that's where this catchphrase came from ! Because Thanksgiving comes before Merry Christmas. SEE THAT?! Omg, I'm such a genius.

Chasing cars

2010-11-15T23:56:00.002+08:00

I feel a sense of relief and freedom when I'm behind the wheel.

Maybe because I'm so focused on driving, every other problem seems to just fade away.

I feel... ZEN.

Ohwell, it's still only a transitory feeling.

Don't hide from your hide, use it as a hide!

2010-11-15T00:32:00.002+08:00

I think that's a lesson for everyone. But right now, this quote is for Sarnia.

Love you my dear girl, no matter what happens. (8 !

Too bored for words.

2010-11-12T19:20:00.002+08:00

THE HANDSOMEST GUYS IN THE WORRRRLLLLDDDD:

- Johnny Depp

- Leonardo DiCaprio

- Robert Downey, Jr.

- Shaoli Koh

HAHAHAHA. ♥♥♥

Few more hours to 5 months ! 8DD !

2010-11-06T12:02:00.002+08:00

Or you could also say 7 months (8 !!!

Slept over on Thursday, whole day out on Friday followed by family dinner.
AND double date later with Jiejie and Liinson Kor !!!! (8 !!!

Hannah with Shaoli is a Happy Hannah !

Come and show them what you're worth.

2010-10-29T23:41:00.001+08:00

You made me disappointed silently 2 times today.

But disappointed Hannah doesn't make a Happy Hannah.

So, OHWELL. (8 !

Can't wait for tomorrow (8 !!!

(Or rather, today, since it's 12 already.)

IN A HAPPY MOOD YO !

2010-10-26T21:03:00.001+08:00

So please don't spoil it.

8DD

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

PARANOID.

2010-10-25T00:22:00.001+08:00

Eck. 8/

COM101, yuck.

2010-10-20T20:43:00.002+08:00

COM101 results are out ! And my marks are beyond atrocious.

Maybe the lack of interest to the subject or the teacher. But who's to blame. I seriously didn't like COM101 since forever.

Time to study hard for the other subjects to get a decent GPA ! (8

My dear girl, Sarnia.

2010-10-17T23:07:00.002+08:00

Maybe you already knew I was going to be in your life for a long time when you jumped on me at Sembawang, despite Darwin's undying love for you.

Maybe you already knew that you were going to get extra love when you stared at me through the kitchen door window the first time I was at Shao's place, despite Pongpong's annoying barks.

Maybe you already knew your presence would comfort me a lot when you decided to accompany me and sit by me, despite the hot weather and that you could choose to be in the air-conditioned room.

Maybe you already knew that I need hugs from time to time when you sat upright, despite your usual princess-y way of sitting.

However, maybe all these are just coincidences. But whichever the case, you're still a little bundle of joy (8 !

Happy Birthday Sarnia ! ♥

Prioritizing; what do you care about more?

2010-10-15T01:14:00.002+08:00

It's very comforting to know what drives the thoughts in people's minds. It's not about what you think, it's about what you think about.

Siblings are still the best. Thank you, Jiejie !

EDVARD CURRENT AND BEELA SWAN !

2010-10-11T21:09:00.001+08:00

There's gonna be an animated movie about Gnomes and how they come alive when we're not around?!

Oh. My. God.

The horror.

Hello to my impending DOOM !

2010-10-10T23:17:00.001+08:00

Okay, maybe it isn't THAT bad. 8DD !

I don't know but I feel as if I'm studying aimlessly ! After knowing that my results for the essay is a C grade, I seem to not have the drive to study for COM101 anymore.

Eck.

I'm one fortunate basterd.

2010-10-05T21:38:00.004+08:00

My boyfriend is RICH

in love and care, understanding and support, charm and patience.

ILoveYouKohShaoli!

AM GOING TO FINALLY SEE SYIDAH MY BESTIE ! IT HAS BEEN WHAT? 12986381752381 YEARS?!?!

A Series Of Unfortunate Events

2010-09-27T14:50:00.002+08:00

First, I sprained my ankle and it hurts when I walk.

Then, I found out I forgot to submit my essay before the deadline.

what. next.

Shun the Non-believer. SHUNNN!

2010-09-25T11:13:00.001+08:00

Bad things have been happening to everyone in my family lately.

It's kinda scary waiting for MY turn. 8l

Sometimes two is NOT better than one.

2010-09-20T22:43:00.001+08:00

You split your money and you split your love. So why don't you go on ahead and split yourself in two too, MF.

Because I'm so good at Math.

2010-09-15T21:11:00.003+08:00

Hannah + ( School Work x 2) + Project Work - Meetings with boyfriend = Hannah + (Anxiety x 2) + Desolation

It's a chore, it's a bore.

2010-09-10T01:00:00.002+08:00

AHHH ! Blog entries EVERY SINGLE WEEK, and my grades depend on how many comments that I have ?!?!?! That's so UNJUST ! ! ! But what about those people who are naturally popular ?! 8((

In case you wanna help me: www.henalenah.wordpress.com

THANKS.

Pens down ! "oh shit."

2010-09-06T18:29:00.001+08:00

GONNA TAKE MY BTT TOMORROW.

SCARED.

Haven't taken an exam/test/quiz in agessssss.

That's extremely rude and insensitive.

2010-09-05T23:22:00.002+08:00

But. I. Can't. Help. It.

Who in the world wears 3-inch thick makeup to school in the first place?!

Oh, I know who. That's why I stared in the first place.

I can't "Go The Distance".

2010-08-31T22:17:00.004+08:00

I wanna watch this movie ! Cause I absolutely lovelovelove Drew Barrymore and Justin Long. And I'm crazy about them being together ! Even in real life. ♥

But I definitely, with a capital D, can't be in a long distance relationship. I would have like damn a lot of trust issues. And I'm already missing Shaoli. 8( !

I found solace.

2010-08-22T23:01:00.002+08:00

I never EVER want to end up thinking to myself :

"We could've made it work, we could've found a way.
If we didn't kept it all inside, till it hurts the both of us."

So thank God for heart-to-heart talks. I believe we have become much stronger! (8

Maybe I was wrong. Maybe I was the one to blame.

2010-08-17T21:58:00.002+08:00

So maybe what made everything a failure, in the end, boils down to me.

I was never good at pleasing people anyway.

But is my way of trying wrong? Peculiar? Annoying? Or so redundant that it doesn't matter if I did try?

we're having a silent tug 'o' war.

2010-08-04T10:25:00.003+08:00

Even though we're speaking again, I wish I could say things are fine.

But they're not.

They were never fine. Until you decide.
Because you never gave a shit about my feelings.

My heart still belongs to newspaper comics.

2010-07-21T01:41:00.008+08:00

This made my day. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Under the capitol at the N.S.A. bunker,

A: The ekert may have escaped, Sir...
B: What makes you think that?

A: We have reports from the Northeast that contentment might be breaking out.
B: Hmm... How bad is it ?
A: Uh... Pretty serious, Sir...

A: ... Red Sox fans are realizing that baseball is just a game.
B: HOLY... Ok, there's no time to lose !

A: You want me to wake the President?
B: No... We have to take this HIGHER.

no, you're not helping.

2010-07-19T22:11:00.002+08:00

Is it a blessing or a curse?

Right now, to me, it's a curse. Why can't she just be neutral for once? Instead of heading for the extremes. Scolding, scolding and more scolding is what I've gained. Previously, it's because it wasn't good enough for me. Now, it's because it's too good for me, and I couldn't possibly match up. Thanks for driving a gap between us. Thanks for making me start disliking even the people I cherish most.

How can I ever tell you anything anymore? How can I ever put up with this forever if it already gets the better of me now? How can I ever feel worthy enough? When will it ever be too much for me to take ?

And... How can I ever tell you how's he doing when he doesn't even wanna talk to me.

My boy is a geek.

2010-06-25T17:15:00.003+08:00

You know how any average person would say " I hope the feeling's mutual " ?

Well, Shao says " I hope the feeling's reciprocal "

HAHAHAHAHHA.

That's how much of a geek my boy is.

uninvited moments.

2010-06-08T23:18:00.002+08:00

I just discovered your blog. And I wish I hadn't.
Maybe if I did a lil' earlier, this day wouldn't happened.
None of the events this year would happen.

Can't say I regret it, can't say I'm happy about it.
Didn't know how hurt you felt until TODAY.
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so so so sorry.

But I guess it's too late now, isn't it?
We've both moved on.

And, I guess, thank God for that.

(8

I was never THERE.

2010-05-25T22:46:00.002+08:00

Talked to Mel today, and found out that my chances of getting into a local uni has went down to 0.00000000000001%. I'm gonna disappoint him again. Like I always did. 8(((

But thank God for Unicorns.

(8

So how was I like a few months ago?

2010-04-22T15:17:00.002+08:00

My parents said to me as I smiled at them,

"Nana come back already. It's been months, but Nana really come back already."

Forever only lasts for a day.

2010-04-20T12:54:00.003+08:00

Disappointed,
Frustrated,
Disgusted,
And just upset.

Late night phone conversations,
Face-to-Face confrontations,
Text messages,
Fights, fights and more fights.

You were always
Disappointed in me,
Mad at me,
Controlling me,
Hating almost everyone around me.
Making me sad, sad, so sad.

I was always
Soft-hearted,
Guilty,
Filled with sympathy.
Regrets, regrets, regrets.

Your withdrawal symptoms,
Suicidal attempts,
Tears and screams,
Are making me scared.
Like a threat, like a threat, like a threat.

You made me realized that there is
No forever,
No kept promises,
No knight in shining armour,
No relationships that wouldn't cause
Pain, pain and more pain.

Disappointed,
Frustrated,
Disgusted,
And just upset.

So just leave me alone.
And let me go.

All That I've Got - The Used

2010-03-03T10:13:00.001+08:00

i crave for IKEA's meatballs.

2010-02-22T22:58:00.002+08:00

I AM SO BORED AT WORK.

So bored that I read this magazine today and decided that if I ever go on a diet plan, I'd DIE. Like seriously. I don't get how other people can go on diets. It's so PAINFUL.

SOME DIETING TIPS
"Never go to a party with an empty stomach."
Like WHAT?! I thought parties are supposed to be about friends, fun and FOOD. Going to a party after eating is like... ALMOST A CRIME. Wouldn't it be rather rude if you don't eat in someone's party?!

"Consider whether you're really hungry"
Hungry then hungry lah! I don't just eat when I'm REALLY hungry. That's like STARVATION.

"Ignore Ronald Macdonald"
This confirm cannot. If I ignore Ronald, there will still be Grimace, Birdie, Hamburgerlar, and the Fry Kids.

"Avoid pasta and white bread"
What's there left?! I love pasta and white bread. 8(

"No food after 10pm"
This is FATAL.

PEACHES !!!

2010-02-11T22:51:00.002+08:00

I always thought

Zooey Deschanel

was

Katy Perry.

Woke up cranky and feel like pushing Sarah Palin and the NBC producers down the nearest flight of stairs.

2010-01-27T00:09:00.004+08:00

Writing this cause Royston and Iris kept complaining. So I shall include ALL that they want me to include.

1) Ji is in ARMY. So not free.

2) YEAH THAT STUPID SENTOSA. WASTE MY TIME. Imma go tutor someone and earn easy money. Just hope that I won't end up killing any of my tutees.

3) I am bored. Bored out of my skull. Dying and wasting my life away in this boredom. So bored that I hang out with Jayjay in habbo today. HABBO LEH. I must be damn bored. Seriously.

Yeah, I think that's all. ;DD

END OF POST.
Bye. Remind me again, why did I create a blog?

Houston, We have a problem.

2010-01-19T18:37:00.003+08:00

I HATE being sick. Especially when it's those times when you have like multiple sickness at ONE time. Right now, I am suffering from my monthly stomachache-cum-vomiting, flu, fever and a splitting headache. It's these times when I wander around like a walking zombie and I feel as if I'm hovering around the lines of life and death. Or maybe I'm just thinking too much. -.-

Misery sings well

2009-12-25T08:59:00.005+08:00

Is your ship sinking?

Do you know that's Arsenic you're drinking?

Are you buried in ice-caps?

Did the bridge you're on collapse?

Did that place you're in explode?

And this is why I'm singing this ode.

Ooh, what the heck.

Thrown in a trainwreck.

Ooh oh, what the heck.

Thrown in a trainwreck.

Christmas is here ! Is it just me or was I just complaining about how boring and long this holiday seemed? Cause right now, I'm still shocked that it's Christmas already. I've waited since the start of this year for this day to come! Maybe it was just the first 2 weeks of holiday that seemed long and draggy and boring... Can't wait for tonight's family gathering ! 8DDD

I was just wondering... If they claim that we use less than 1-2% of our brain in our entire lifetime, what will happen if we use like 100% of it? Or even just 50% of it? Will our head explode due to overflowing knowledge and wisdom? Or will we just die from exhaustion caused by thinking too much?

I believe in Santa Claus! Or at least, I believe that there is some fat old man out there with a very very kind soul, and that flying reindeers and elves exists.

Ohohoh! Did you know that many traffic jams, especially in highways, in places like Singapore are caused by car accidents? (This may sound logical, but it won't after elaboration) Not only the lane that has the car accident would have jams, but the lane beside it as well... even if it's going the opposite direction. This just proves one thing! Singaporeans are kay-poh. Either that or they just wanna see the number plates of the vehicles involved so that they can buy 4D.

Oh are we lucky we're staying in a peaceful country like Singapore. I heard from a friend that in countries like the States, people have wars in shopping malls during the Christmas season. All of them rushing to buy discounted items and Christmas prezzies. Come to think of it, dying because of a stampede seems to be the most gruesome and scary way of dying. Imagine being stepped on to death because everyone is too busy thinking of something else to even notice your existance. O_O O My Ass.

If photos capture a moment, do we die a little after being photographed?

I have, like, LOADS of Christmas WANTS ! I want a Yorkshire Terrier. I want a new Laptop. I want a Dwarf Bunny. I want a new bag. (Or rather that red Fila bag which Mel and I are aiming for since we saw it at WWSS) I want to start work. I want loads of money. (Who doesn't?) I want loads of cakes and candies. I want to meet up with friends that I haven't met up with in ages. I want 300 cans of whipped cream. I want to eat WWSS potong chicken rice, stingray and curry sotong. I want to go to Japan again! I want to just go overseas. (Not just Malaysia) I want to see snow. I want China to cooperate with the rest of the countries and reduce it's greenhouse gas emission. I want a cat. I want Stitch merchandise. I want World Peace. (-Flashes Megawatt Miss Universe Worthy Smile.)

I think I talk too much. And after reading what I typed, I realized how random and all-over-the-place my thoughts are. Ohwell...

Merry Christmas!

Channel surfing isn't fun when you don't have cable TV.

2009-12-08T13:01:00.004+08:00

I am officially bored. Like seriously BORED.
I don't even know why I still wake up at 6am every single day and then I come online with no one to talk to. Cept for the occasional appearance of Jayjay.

I went out most of last week, and this week... is just boring. Even if I DO go out, SINGAPORE is boring. I can't wait till 2010 ! Universal Studios<3 wooo. But till then... I guess Imma find a job.

OHOHOH, and I met Tomy ! 8D ! Haven't seen him for more than a year, but he didn't change much, cept for his hair maybe. Still looks like a monkey (8 !

Oh man, I'm starting to miss so many people ! Why isn't the poly holidays same as mine >8(

The world is quiet here.

2009-11-21T09:38:00.004+08:00

Ironically, I feel safe knowing their existence.

JOHN CHO!

2009-11-20T09:35:00.001+08:00

I'm in love with this korean guy. HOT YES?!

Where is Amelia?

2009-11-17T22:26:00.002+08:00

DONE WITH MOST OF MY PAPERS !!!

Now I'm just waiting for my chemistry paper 1. Damn, why is it so far away !?

The papers were... hmm... (with the exception of maths paper 1 and literature paper 1) It was doable ! Now just hope I can score and get in to a university. AHHH. The wait is killing me... Eating me inside. Or eating my insides? Ew, Okay, I shall stop here. 8D

The bright side of the dark side.

2009-10-03T00:43:00.005+08:00

Done with Prelims! I HAS IMPROVED !!! (8
But still got U's for my H2s. AHH. Damn sian. 8l
Geog was damn depressing! ARGH. Got E nia. Dayumm. 8((
Ohwell, it's more WAKE-UP HANNAH than WAHLAO YOU'RE IN DEEP SHIT.
So Yeah, I guess I'm pretty okay (8

37 days left ! AHHH. It's always at times like these when I will go "What the hell?! I thought there was like 3 months left?!" Obviously, I don't take much notice of time. 8D

RAWR. Now for PRACTISE PRACTISE PRACTISE!!! CHIONG ARH !!!

I hate how it's like my fault when I don't even have the slightest idea on what in the world is going on. So stop asking me questions. It's getting annoying. You want answers, ask them. I'm as lost as you are.

Hi, I am Dotty. How are you?

2009-09-16T11:01:00.002+08:00

RASHES AND SPOTS!!! AHHHH.
Yesh, I have them. Stay awayyyyyy. 8D
Be afraid of Hannah, be very afraid.

Bring me back to 7 days ago. I don't wanna lose you as a friend.

Samothy gets an UPGRADE ! (8

2009-09-01T16:50:00.003+08:00

Samothy was a vibrant ORANGE Motorola RAZOR v3xx... And I freakin' liked this phone. 8(

But now Samothy is this ugly-lookin' Samsung Omnia Pro. NOOOO.

Ohwell. At least he's chocolate colour. And soon Imma decorate him with STICKERS ! (8 !

It shall and will look pretty. 8DD !

Happy Birthday Maxwell Hunter!!! 8DDD

2009-08-20T20:21:00.005+08:00

Sick Sick Sick Sick Sick.
I HATE BEING SICK. Omg, seriously suffering here.

Three days. Three nights.
Lemon water, chicken
Water, water make me retch

Fever 103° - Sylvia Plath.

HAHAHHHA. Yes, I'm too bored.

AND I'M LOSING SO MANY PRECIOUS LESSONS!!! And 2 lectures!!! What's worse? There's nobody I know in my math lecture 8(( Unless you consider that soccer guy somebody...

So I'm STUCK here at my boring house trying to do some work with my headaches slowly killing me. Boring, pain, boring, thirsty, borinnggggggg. But Ji might be visiting tomorrow, so all's well (8 !!!

McFLY WAS FEATURED ON THE LATEST 8DAYS !!! WOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

Why don't they come to Singapore??!?!? Why don't anyone come to Singapore?! I don't give a damn about Lady Gaga or Beyonce! I want McFly!!! 8(((

Honda Crossroad. (Thanks Jazzly)

I WANTTTTT!!!! It's like the closest I can get to a Hummer.

Then again, why don't they sell hummers here in Singapore??!?!? >8[

this is so messed up.

2009-08-15T03:03:00.002+08:00

WHAT MOTIVATES YOU?
And, seriously, what in the world motivates some others to do such things.

blechk.

i want to learn cantonese.

2009-07-26T12:54:00.002+08:00

I so wanna be Mrs. Depp.

what was i thinking?!

2009-07-19T15:48:00.004+08:00

R.I.P. Bebo Version 3.0
You will be missed.

Shawn + Ken + GoldFish (or any other kind of living thing for that matter)
= Worst Idea Ever.

ITS CHEAPER THAN $5.51

2009-07-13T20:57:00.003+08:00

WANNA BUY HANDMADE EARRINGS MADE OF SWAROVSKI CRYSTALS?!?!?!

when all your dreams are shattered, everything is beautiful.

2009-07-08T13:42:00.000+08:00

I MISS MY BRACES.

it's almost unreal.

2009-07-01T22:54:00.002+08:00

One day, I'm going to DIE of headaches.

I tend to get pissed off easily when I have headaches. And recently, I'm getting them on a daily basis. I'm a time-bomb waiting to EXPLODE. I sound so cool of the sudden. (8

its all like a dream. just a dream.

2009-06-27T01:55:00.004+08:00

I HAVE TO LEARN TO SEE THE IMPORTANCE OF STUDYING. LIKE NOW.

I love you people SOOO much.

2009-06-15T23:12:00.005+08:00

Thank you thank you for all the birthday wishes, gifts, cards and whatever.

THANK YOU PEOPLE WHO CELEBRATED MY BIRTHDAY.
Even if on my birthday itself, it was... pretty boring. Hahahah, Syidah should know.

OHYESOHYES. AND, I am mighty happy about my sister's prezzie for me 8DD

Banana Republic's ALABASTER!!! Omgomgomg, I love her soooo much.

I MISS YOU MR YAP.

LOVEYOULOVEYOU RACHEL CHILDHOODFRIEND.

LOVEYOULOVEYOU 08S13.

i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry.

2009-06-07T15:10:00.002+08:00

hah. Life amuses me.

my biggest fear is to be like them when i grow up.

2009-05-24T16:07:00.002+08:00

AHHH. Next week is THE GP PAPER. NOOOO!!! I am so not prepared, I swear. WHY IS TIME PASSING BY SO FAST. WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY.

I hate EXAMS. I hate having to step into the exam hall feeling like I have not studied enough, and yeah, I haven't been studying enough. AHHH. I hate JC. No wait, I hate studying! NO WAIT. I hate everything now. Even rainbows. >;l

AND WHY THE HELL AM I NOT STRESSED?! As in, stressed enough to STUDYYY!!! and CHIIONNGG!!! Instead, I'm looking at everyone else and going "what in the world are we rushing for?" damn, I hate how life is such a rush. Rushing to do this, rushing to do that. KANCHIONG SPIDERS!

Why am I not born in a farm or something? At least life there is laidback. I want that life ;[

my pillar of strenght has crumbled.

2009-05-16T14:39:00.001+08:00

AHH.

Happeh! I gots my jersey! 8D

2009-05-02T23:19:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAWNNNN POOOHHHHHHHHHHHH.

That actually sounds like Siong Poo. HAHAHAHAH.

Anywho, don't worry Shawn, YingXin will notice you one day. That is if Ken doesn't know her first. (:

I WANTS TO ADMIT THIS: I ADMIRE BANGLADESHIES!!!

Okay, maybe ALL construction workers. BUDDEN, Bangladeshies are the CUTEST. As in, not cute in looks but yeahh.... OKAY ANYWHO, I admire them because of how fast they can actually build. I MEAN LIKE, I can go to some place and I'm like "Since when did this building appear?!" I mean, LOOK AT JURONG POINT!!! It's just like a year or so since they started, and POP it's now OPENED. DAMN FAST. They're DAMN good!!!! SO COOL SO COOL. And Bangladeshies are the CUTEST because everytime like at the start of the month or something, I'll see them queueing up at the ATM machine and they'll be like smiling like CRAZY. So cute x_x and then some of them will be holding hands. HAHAHHA. Okay, that's so out of point. (:

Ohh, Comic Time.

i have to stop drooling over Japanese stars.

2009-04-12T02:58:00.003+08:00

OMG. MY EXAM RESULTS SUCCCKKKKEEEDDDD.

I came up with a STUDY PLAN!!! Well, I had to, since the principal wanted to see it. And unlike secondary school, I'm sticking to this one. Which means I have damn a lot of extra work to do. No more laziness, no more anime (shit), no more playing, no more going out unnecessarily. I don't think I can do the last one, but yeah, I'll try.

Went out with Mel, Tohtoh and Roys on friday. DAMN FUN. Well, okay lah. I still can't forget how Roys tried to roll his eyes and then his fringe poke his eyes. DAMN LOSER. HAHAHHAH. SO LONG NEVER SEE MELISSAAAA. I miss her a lot man. Shit, she's still the same ! hhahaah. That's nice. I MISS ALL MY SECONDARY SCHOOL FRIEEENNDDDSSS.

Damn happy yesterday also. Got to watch DMC ! WOOOO. Funny show. I LOVE THE WAY KENICHI MATSUYAMA RUNS (: Sho CUTEEEE. ;D ! Genius Actor. Then went to some person's house at Eunos, damn boring but I got to see Yun Lin! Miss her a lot too. Ah damn. Came home and read Clementine's pm, decided to buy the JERSEY. Kewl sia. Been awhile since I wanted one, so yeah, good price and for a good cause, since he wanted to sell it off so desperately.

YESSAH. Okay, Happy for 2 days, I'm damn motivated to study the whole day today. So I should sleep now... Or not. Still have to wait till my sister come back. SIAN. ahhhh.

i am so deprived.

2009-04-04T13:53:00.003+08:00

I WANNA WATCH MOOVIES.

Or rather, I wanna watch SOMETHING. For the sake of my future life, I have gave up on MANY MANY shows. I've stopped catching BLEACH and SOULEATER every week, which means my life has a lot less laugh. Everytime I feel like watching a show or movie, I'm like, OH NOES. I SHOULD BE STUDYING and I end up sitting on the table infront of a book. AHHH. I don't even read books anymore. I miss Jeffrey Deaver. A lot.

I made a list of movies I wanna catch ! If I'm ever free.

1) X-Men Origins : Wolverine (Hugh Jackman is just too hot)

2) Transformers : Revenge of the Fallen

3) Planet 51

4) Ice Age : Dawn of the Dinosaurs

5) Monsters VS Aliens

6) Avatar : The Last Airbender (Fav. Nickelodeon Cartoon)

7) Detroit Metal City (but I'm pretty freaked out by his appearance as Johannes KrauserII)

8) TEKKEN (So they said there's going to be a movie. Hope it isn't as lame as DOA)

9) 9

10) Breakfast At Tiffany's (Woo, Audrey Hepburn <3)

11) Angels and Demons

12) Edward Scissorhands

13) Beetle Juice

14) Pee-wee's Big Adventure

15) Legend Of Chun-Li (hah. I loved Street Fighter)

Ho ho ho. There's more though. xD

ironically, i hope my dreams DON'T come true.

2009-03-29T23:32:00.002+08:00

AHHHHH. I hate nightmares. I SERIOUSLY HATE NIGHTMARES. And I don't know WHY I always have to end up trying to literally TEAR myself away from the dream and force myself to wake up in order to get out of the dream. STUPID NIGHTMARES.

AND, most of the time it would be about a group of friends or, more often, only one friend and I would be trapped in this HUGE house and we can't get out. Everytime I dream about that house, I would try a different way of escaping, but no matter how many times I try, I ALWAYS FAIL. SO DARN SCARY LAHHH. I swear, if I ever see that house in real life, I would seriously freak out. seriously.